February definitely wasn’t what I was expecting or hoping for. It brought with it some challenging circumstances and heartache, but in the midst of all of that, there were some incredible moments of joy. Speaking honestly, I am struggling with my mental health. I’ve been talking about this a lot, lately, on my instagram but, in essence, the lows seem to stretch on and on, and I’ve found myself struggling. Anxiety often gets the best of me and my mind is tired. I am lucky, I suppose, in that I am not going through this alone. I have help, love, and support both professional and personal, and faith too.
Working on my mental health has been taking precedence over a lot of the goals that I set for myself for this month, but still, there have been wins. While I’m still struggling with getting enough sleep and waking up when I say I will, here are a couple of things I’m especially proud of this month:
I started to dig my way out of a creative rut
For me, a sign that things are getting bad again, mental health-wise, is a lack of creativity. Creating, whether it’s words or photography, makes me feel alive, and for a while there, I’ve had absolutely no inclination to create at all. This month, I’ve tried to be a little more intentional in going out and creating. While my blog has been very neglected, I’ve been doing interviews and photo sessions for the Hair Stories series, filmed videos, and been working on more personal writing projects.
I’ve made more time for fun
I wrote in last month’s journal about how I’ve been struggling to create a balance between my studies, my job, and actually enjoying myself. While I still feel quite far from that balance, February saw me closer to it than I’ve been in a long while. From coffee dates to walks on the beach or simply phone calls with friends, I’ve resisted the urge to withdraw and instead surrounded myself with support.
Goals for March
Looking to March, I’m cautiously optimistic. A big thing for me is going to be relying less on perfect circumstances to feel joy. Being in my twenties, and at uni, this is a very transitional period for me. I put a lot of pressure on myself to hustle for my dreams, but ultimately this only leads to burnout and disappointment. This month, I’ll be working on taking some of that pressure off. I’ll keep taking time for creativity and unwinding, and focus a little more on what’s in front of me, instead of only on the things that I can’t control.